Interview

I promised my Patreon readers that I’d make a video or two if I met my patronage goals. This short video was made during a meeting of my Working Artists Collective of Appleton, a small group I put together to accomplish my goals – or admit to others that I hadn’t. A few of us are using it to replace deadlines and to otherwise motivate ourselves.

This short interview was filmed by friend Lynne, with minor editing by my wife. The person interviewing me is Vered, Appleton City Council member and the first out trans official elected in the state of WI.

Enjoy.

Here’s my friend Jon Hakes’ page, and here’s Julia Serano’s.

Compersion

Another new piece on Patreon today. Hope you dig it. Here’s an excerpt:

Who wants to be the person who tells the person you love most in the world not to leap?

Who wants to live with a person who hasn’t leapt when they wanted to?

I refuse to accept emotions that make me smaller, make my experience in the world more petty, to buy hook line and sinker the idea that any desire my spouse has for another person is by default an insult to me or disrespectful to our relationship.

I want the world to be bigger, to be more generous, to realize desire and love are not goddamned pie and we will not run out. People are not less special because you share them with others. People are more beautiful the more they are loved.

And my wife, you know? She was put in this world to be adored. I have no interest in hating anyone who wants to love and admire her too.

Read the whole thing here.

Trans Artists & the Oscars

Daniela Vega, you may have heard, is the first out trans person to present at the Oscars.

Yance Ford was nominated for his movie Strong Island, which is a shattering, incredible documentary.

In past years, other trans artists to receive Oscar nominations include:

  • In 1974 (1974!) songwriter Angela Morley for scoring The Slipper and the Rose: The Story of Cinderella and The Little Prince
  • In 2016, singer Anohni (formerly of Antony & the Johnson) for “Manta Ray” from the documentary Racing Extinction, and
  • In 2017, visual effects artist Paige Warner for helping to develop ILM’s facial performance-capture solving system.

Let’s get those numbers up, shall we?

To the Young Queer Person Who Has Just Come Out to Unaccepting Parents:

A student I know recently came out to religious, conservative, traditional parents and they’re not taking it well, so I asked some of my friends and readers for some words of support for this young person. It was hard not to read the posts without crying. I wanted to compile them here so that others can pass this on to whomever in your life needs it.

  1. Your family doesn’t have to be flesh and blood.
  2. This can take time, sometimes 3-5 years. They love you and who you are is really scaring them them. Don’t take abusive but don’t give up on them either.
  3. Welcome to our community! I don’t know how old you are or how long it took you to come out. It’s stressful but for the best, trust me. Give you family some time to process it. It took you years to come out, it’s going to take them time to accept you. And if they don’t, you are going to be ok. I bet you know this already, but family is what you choose to be family. XOXOXO
  4. Let them know that you had a student once who had a terrible time with her conservative family all through college after she came out. Things weren’t better quickly, but time can do a lot. As unconvincing as “It gets better” can be sometimes, after periods of hopelessness and persistence, eventually this moment will feel like a far off memory. In any case your student is wonderful and good exactly as they are and a Stranger is proud of them for being open and honest and authentic and fighting for themselves.
  5. just because they’ve known you doesn’t mean they know you better than you do. don’t let them make you second-guess yourself. they may come around a little at a time, they may never. but you have yourself and your truth and that counts for so much more in the end. ?
  6. I was blessed to have a family that accepted me exactly as I was, because we are all born and grow to be exactly as we should be. However you are, you are right and loved and wonderful.
  7. They can come around, and it will take time. And if they don’t, there’s plenty of people waiting to support you as you are.
  8. I grew up in a Christian fundamentalist household. I now identify as an openly transgendered woman & I’ve been working as a transgender activist for the last 21 years. Everything is possible when you accept yourself & refuse to live from a script someone else has written for you~!
  9. Please tell your student that they have another family out here waiting to take them in. We are loving, and supportive, and accepting. And we are everywhere.
  10. Sometimes family has a hard time accepting the reality of who you’ve become or always known you are. They wanted so much for you your entire life and they need to switch gears to honor your true self. It can take time and pain and love and awkward conversations… or even space. Relationships change and surely this one will change too, hopefully many times and for the better. Wishing you all the love and luck in the world—remember your queer family is everywhere and we always got your back.
  11. Baptist preacher kid here. Coming out was brutal and far too late. I don’t know you but I’m proud of your spirit and your truth.. I’m sorry for your family’s reaction. Don’t let it dim your light because you were meant to shine. I know because I’m a bright motherfucking bitch. I survived them and now I thrive. You’ve got this.
  12. I mean everyone else has already said it, but the blood of the covenant truly is thicker than the water of the womb.
  13. You are who you are, and no one should expect you to be anyone else. You’re the best you there is. And even if people cannot grasp this, please know: you are loved.
  14. You are all family to each other. Give them time, let them see you are happier and more centered, and hopefully they will remember that you are all family.
  15. You can’t make your family, or well, anyone, believe ANYTHING.
    You just can’t. What you can do is focus on what you actually have with them and build on that.
    And then … go on and live your life knowing that your family isn’t right there next to you. They might come along! You never know! If you love them and they love you and that’s all you got right now well then that’s what you’ve got. Right now. Not acceptance or understanding… hopefully that will come. It will be what it will be.
    Mostly, just be you.
    And find ways to get past all the dumb shit that is surely to come. Or not. You never know.
    Just be you. And forgive what is forgivable. They know not what they do (sometimes). Heh.
  16. Most parents that having a hard time look at it as they did something wrong… also keep in mind they also need time to deal with their feelings…it’s their journey and you can not make that your issue. Be out, be proud, be you and most of all Welcome to the Family
    I moved out abruptly at the age of 19 after a domestic violence incident.
    At 20 I began dating the love of my life, and we were together for 20 years, until her death. I am so, so glad I did not miss a minute with her.
    Every good and worthwhile thing in my life has come from having the chutzpah to follow the love of my heart (the rage sometimes comes from love, too – love of self that is frustrated). It has at times been terrifying, frustrating, and so on. I did not know what I was doing, but that’s part of discovery and creation. I reached out for help over and over again and got so much bad advice and insufficient support. It’s taken me until about now, at 43, to see that I was doing the right things, asking the right questions, doing my best under hard and scary circumstances.
    Just because it’s hard and scary, just because your best might not be good enough to have it go the way you want it to go at this point in the experience, doesn’t mean you’re doing it wrong.
    I hope the adults in your life come through for you, because life is exponentially easier for you when they do.
    You deserve to have someone hold the space so you’re safe in this tender place.
    I hope your path is easier – with a world wide web of support, it truly could be.
    You are worthwhile and the life you get to build by being who you are is worthwhile.
    All the love to you. <3
  17. First of all, you never know how much can change with time. People adjust, change their views and come to terms with a lot when it comes to people they love. But if they don’t ever accept you, at the end of the day, you can make the choice to accept yourself and live in your truth despite what others may want. Being authentically you is the only way to live. If your family can’t get on board, there are others out there who will love and support you as you truly are.
  18. As a healthcare provider and a hetero mom of three kids, who also proudly works to provide health care for the queer community in one of the first clinics in the US that cared for the gay/trans/HIV community…What is evident to me is that the there are so many people who will support you. There are so many people that have been through similar things you are going through. You can find a tribe if you look. Don’t give up on your family. They might come around-and if they don’t well…seek out your own path and you will gain confidence and power and it will get better.
  19. Find your village. The people who accept you for everything and anything you are. And never be afraid to call on your village.
  20. All I can say is that they are brave, beautiful and loved, and to always seek out people who will hold them close for who they are!
  21. This is for the parents; I learnt this from my mom who was also religious: Your child is still your child. God gave them to you to love and cherish. He made your child the way they are. He didn’t make a mistake nor did you. Others may judge your child and perhaps you, but He will note their judgement and they will have to account. Continue to love your child. Love those they choose to share their lives with as if they were your own. God is a loving God who loves all of God’s children. He asks you to love the children he gave you to love as He does.
  22. You are easy to love. Incredibly easy to love. This is always true, even when the people who we expect to love us are unable to show it. People will love you for exactly who you are, try your best to let them. ??
  23. There’s an old coming-out book, Now That You Know, that was written by religious parents for religious parents. PFLAG used to recommend it. It breaks down the Bible in logical terms. It might not help in this day and age because people seem more entrenched than ever. My favorite part is a chapter that talks about the Agrarian Society of the Bible. Once they figured out that same-sex sex didn’t make children, they had to outlaw it because they needed farmhands. So simple. Logical.
  24. Despite the risk you chose to be honest and authentic and I can’t be more proud of you. Maybe your parents will accept it, maybe they won’t, but the most important thing is whether you’re honest and loving to yourself. Now this is a big change and you don’t know what will happen, that’s ok. Please give yourself room to breathe and go through this. It sucks big time, but give yourself time and patience and you will heal. Meanwhile you have a big ole family right here. You’re always welcome to add me, message me, or whatever, with you’re permission I’d love to include you in my queerio family.
  25. The outpouring of love and support in this thread is a beautiful testament to how many wonderful humans in this community have their back. If they ever need someone to talk to, I’d be honored to offer any help and support I can give to them. Welcome to the family, darling. We love you and support you, wherever your journey takes you. This world is too hard to go it alone, and if this thread says anything, it is that you are not alone in the slightest 🙂
  26. To this person: I love you and I support you! ?
  27. A mom here. It is so hard to come to see that baby that you birthed, named, held and nurtured as an independent adult. This is a tough time for parents even without any big reveals. They love you. They always will. They have bit their tongues through all sorts of stages and now need a little time and understanding themselves. I am so sorry that this wasn’t easy for all of you but they raised a lovely human being who knows who they are and who is courageous enough to be honest about it. You have a whole lifetime in front of you. Find your community but leave a door open for your parents. It may take some time but family is family and they know that as certain as they love you.
  28. Be who you are. Your parents may not come around but you are beautiful and strong.
  29. I came out almost 21 years ago, at a time when almost no one understood and our community was nothing like we have today. Truth is, there will always be those who want you live up to their idea of who you should be instead of your own. Be who you are, loudly and proudly, without apology. You may find that in time your parents will come around, as mine did, when they see you living your life in the way that makes you happy. In the end, if there’s anything I’ve learned in all that time, it’s that it’s your life and you need to live it in the way that gives you the most joy, happiness, and personal satisfaction. The rest is just gravy. Some may exit your life but some will stay and those are the people you can trust with your heart.
  30. My parents were very resistant at first, especially because my transition queered them in their community. They had couple-to-couple meetings with their fellow congregants and were amazed at the support they got. It helped make them my advocates rather than opposition.
  31. Don’t feel bad if your family won’t do the work and don’t come around. It’s okay to walk away, and often the only healthy thing to do. make your own family if you need to.
  32. Be true to who you are and things will come around one way or another. Don’t ever stop loving yourself.
  33. It’s a process, not an event. People often need time to come around. And if they don’t come around, it’s their loss. You’re still the same person inside. If they can’t respect you enough to allow you to be authentic, then they’re the ones with the problem, not you.
  34. If worst comes to worst, you are not alone. You will find a religious community that accepts you to be a part of one day.
  35. You are so brave to be yourself. Sending love as a mom and a human being.
  36. Congratulations on being true to yourself. I’m proud of you.
  37. Be nice to them, send them holiday and birthday cards, wait, and hope that they will come around. In the meantime, plan to live without them.
  38. I haven’t had the experience of coming out, but if my kids ever did, I want them to never doubt how loved and supported they are. It breaks my heart every time I hear about parents who don’t love their kids unconditionally. I know this person will find someone who does, and I’m so sorry to hear it wasn’t their parents. It should have been.
  39. As you can see above, I was fortunate, when at the age of 36 I told my parents I was leaving my husband and had fallen in love with a woman, and they simply asked how they could support me. My take is that lack of family acceptance and support can feel like a death. Take the time to grieve that they failed you and your very appropriate expectations of unconditional love and support were not met. protect yourself from any ridicule and harm by setting boundaries and seek those who love you and will support you through this loss.
  40. You’ve found your voice now it’s time to live your life.  Although it would be ideal to have the love and support of your parents…you have an amazing community who loves and supports you.????
  41. Know that you are loved for who you are and how you love by people you don’t know. You will be understood for who you are – and it is painful to not be seen or heard or understood by the people closest to you. But know you will be. And, remember that you are beautiful and loved and cared for no matter how many people may try to tell you otherwise in a day, a week, or your lifetime. Growing up I read Percy Pysshe Shelley’s “Love’s Philosophy” a lot. And, remember you are not alone. There are so many people you don’t know personally reaching out to you through the darkness. Let us keep your light burning for as long as you need to breathe, grieve, grow, and become even more beautiful and more queer and more amazing. 
  42. I’ve found that sharing who you are with the world can be more fulfilling that who understands it. But make sure that you are practicing self-care, and surround yourself with people that love you, support you, and understand that you can be whatever you want.
  43. That’s hard. It depends how much this person cares for their family’s approval. Personally I’ve always lived by the credo ‘You choose your friends, not your family.’ If people (whoever they are) cant love and respect who you are, fuck ’em. Family is merely an accident of birth.
  44. You are brave for coming out, and strong for living a life that is true to who you are. There’s a reason that we queers talk a lot about chosen family: Sometimes we find comfort in folks who are not biologically or legally connected to us. Sometimes those connections end up being just as meaningful as — or even more meaningful than — the ones we formed with the people who raised us. I don’t know whether you’re a Lawrence student, but if you are: know that there’s a community here that supports you.
  45. The first words out of my mom’s mouth was “well, f#ck you very much!” when I told her. Initially she didn’t take it well, but in time she eventually came around.
    Ultimately it boils down to this: are you living YOUR life, or are you living theirs? It’s supposed to be your life — live it, regardless of where the journey takes you! After all, you never know what’s around the corner for you or your life! Look forward to it!

Reform

Today was the day I taught the Triangle Shirtwaist Fire, which as you all know, is depressing af and a tragic moment in American history.

I teach it because I want to teach students about women and labor history and Frances Perkins – because she was the first woman to be part of a US Cabinet (FDR’s, of course) and because she made it her life’s mission not to find out what she wanted from life but to find out what life wanted from her. She’s one of my heroes along with her own hero Al Smith.

But today, after the umpteenth school shooting and so many people just wrecked with sadness and frustration and overall outrage exhaustion, it strikes me that the real lesson from Triangle is that we don’t have to do nothing.

We don’t have to just complain on Facebook.
We don’t have to convince our friends and families.
We have to decide that enough is enough and begin to dedicate ourselves to changing the world in a way that reality becomes more tolerable for everyone.

I don’t know what to do about guns but people in 1909 didn’t know what to do about sweatshops, and once those 146 women died, they figured out how to change shit. Here’s a short list of what they changed, which included, basically, extensive changes to the fire code, working conditions, child labor laws, legalization of union organizing, votes for women, and, um, the New Deal.

Just saying. There is hope, but you have to be it. I am not sure why we are not all out in the streets refusing to work for even another minute until reform happens and children stop dying. But I do know it will take organizing like that for any change to happen. As you go about your day and worry about dinner or your job or a promotion or your vacation, try to remember that 17 more families are on that long list of families mourning young people who don’t get to grow up. I really don’t understand why every parent in this country hasn’t pulled their kid out of school or stormed the PTA to get some movement on this thing.

Find a thing to do. Reform is possible, and sadly, it’s always more possible after a tragedy. Don’t let them die in vain.

Weekly Trans Roundup: 2/4-2/10/18

Since I’ll be doing most of my writing on Patreon these days (do sign up! it’s only $1/month!), I’ve decided that I’ll also do a weekly round up of some of the most trans relevant news I’ve seen in the past week.

Chelsea Manning Isn’t the Only Trans Candidate You Should Know About is a brief article about some of the other awesome trans candidates running in the US.

This cool video by Blake Cully on what it’s like to be trans and deaf.

This awesome sartorial history of pink and blue as the colors for babies from KSPS:

Another great video about Charlotte:

A video by a cis man calling for greater inclusion of trans women (at the women’s march & beyond).

Iowa City added a third gender option.

This cool story about decolonizing sexuality at a Two Spirit Pow Wow.

The announcement that a new book called The Singing Teacher’s Guide to Transgender Voices is now available.

A great article on ‘walking while trans’ about criminalization of trans identities focused primarily on the NYPD.

And sadly, the obituary of the fourth trans woman killed this year, Celine Walker, age 36, who was killed in Jacksonville, FL.

Speaking of Poly…

I just wrote a new piece for Patreon. It begins:

We recently changed our status on Facebook from ‘married’ to ‘in an open relationship’. We’re sure people want to ask but no one has yet. We’ve been kind of laying bets on who is going to ask what first.

. . .

Mostly we heard a lot of “you can’t become poly because your marriage is in crisis” and we heard that having one monogamous and one non monogamous person was impossible. Both wrong. If you want to be CNM, you can do it no matter your circumstances. We delayed our decision because of that kind of advice.  

. . .

The best description of being a CNM couple is that it’s like being part of a well loved band. We work great as a unit and people love us as that unit but sometimes, someone needs to do a solo project or a side project with other musicians. 

and it ends:

 

So that’s that. More stories to come, when I feel like telling them.

Poly Workshop at Wisconsin LGBTQ Conference

Hello all! I’ll be talking about polyamory and non monogamy at this year’s Wisconsin LGBTQ Summit. I haven’t done one of these before but it seems like a good time.

It’s not up on the website yet, but here’s the description:

Poly 101

Polyamorous or consensual non-monogamous relationships have never been uncommon in queer community, but they are starting to be more widely understood and practiced. Come learn some of the basics of what it means to be poly, hear answers to some of the most pressing questions about jealousy, commitment, and making love less like pie.

Monogamous, single, ace, queer, trans, poly, NM… everybody is welcome.

February 24th in Milwaukee.

Here’s a good article if you want to educate yourself a little before then.

2nd Patreon Goal Met

So what’s exciting about this whole Patreon thing is that I feel like people are signing up to read me as a writer and not just me as trans advocate. And that feels good.

I hit my 2nd goal of 25 patrons which means I have to make a video. Come join and you’ll get to see it.

Another thing: this site is having some kind of Malware issue, but my webmistress, my wife, is in the middle of dealing with both (1) having totaled our car last week – she’s fine, and (2) moving to Ashland to start her hear with Oregon Shakespeare Festival — without said car, obviously. She’ll check into it as soon as she can, but in the meantime, you may need to bypass the blog and use direct links to my various things.

Sorry about that. Repairs on the way.